Death to Self

Mastering Desire involves changing your will into God’s will – It’s also described as death to self-will or selfishness.  From another perspective, it is not following our own do-it-yourself soulish path, but letting go and following the Spirit.  It’s an aspect of the mystery Paul spoke of: “I have been crucified with Christ and I no longer live, but Christ lives in me.” Galatians 2:20.  Similarly, Jesus taught, “Whoever wants to be my disciple must deny themselves and take up their cross daily and follow me. For whoever wants to save their life for me will save it.”  Luke 9:23-24.

I saw it like this in a dream:  I was talking to people who mentioned death to self.  I told them that I died years ago, and all the best people have.  Then I saw myself in a hotel room with a floor of hardened dirt.  My tears from all the traumas over all the years fell onto floor, and watered it, until the soil was soft and damp and aerated – rich and black – like farming soil. 

The dream symbols are from Bible stories:  Making Christ […]

By |July 4th, 2017|Teaching|0 Comments

Key of Desire

Psalm 37:4.  Delight thyself also in the LORD; and he shall give thee the desires of thine heart

My Time Streams series mentioned pursuing things by desire.  This is my study on using desire.



Desire is a paradox – it’s a key to both accessing God and achieving success, but it’s also a door of destruction.

The Bible first introduces the concept of desire after the fall of mankind.  God speaks of the “desire” a wife has for her husband.  Genesis 3:16.  (prophetic of the church seeking Christ.)  But then “desire” is used again in Genesis 4:7 as a root of sin, when God warned Caine before he killed Abel.

Desire gives us a powerful tool for either building or destroying.  We often use it unconsciously, submitting to the desires of our soul (our mind, will and emotions).  But understanding how desire works, we have the ability to choose our focus and select an end.

Desire can be an act of faith – believing a thing is possible so that it can be desired.


Desire can create a pathway to God

King David used positive desire as a key to approaching God.

  • Psalm 10:17. Lord, thou hast heard the desire of the humble: thou wilt prepare their heart, thou wilt cause thine ear to hear:
  • Psalm 21:2. Thou has given him his heart’s desire, and has not withheld the request of his lips
  • Psalms 37:4 – Delight thyself also in the LORD; and he shall give thee the desires of thine heart.
  • Psalm 38:9. Lord, all my desire is before thee; and my groaning is not hid from thee
  • Psalm 73:25. Whom have I in heaven but thee? and there is none upon earth that I desire beside thee
  • Psalm 145:18-20.  […]
By |June 11th, 2017|Teaching|0 Comments

Time Streams 7: Path of Life

There’s a mystery hidden in the Bible, which I’ve come to understand, but haven’t walked in yet.

Jesus spoke of a path of life, which few have found:

  • Matthew 7:13-14. Enter through the narrow gate. For wide is the gate and broad is the road that leads to destruction, and many enter through it.  But small is the gate and narrow is the road that leads to life, and only a few find itSee also Luke 13:23-25

Traditionally, we’ve assumed there is a narrow path to salvation from Hell when we die.  But scripture has layers of meaning.  Jesus conquered death.  If you read this passage literally, then there is a narrow road that leads to immortality, which few have found.

If the literal meaning is true, then we expect to find other witnesses in the Bible.  (The principal of witnesses is found in Amos 3:7; Deuteronomy 19:15; 2 Corinthians 13:1).

Here are two translations of Proverbs 12:28

  • In the way of righteousness there is life; along that path is immortality. NIV
  • In the path of righteousness is life, And in the way of that path is no death! Young’s Literal Translation

And Psalm 16:11

  • You will make known to me the path of life; In Your presence is fullness of joy; In Your right hand there are pleasures forever

The path of life is recorded from the earliest of times.

  • Job 33:25. let their flesh be renewed like a child’s; let them be restored as in the days of their youth
  • Genesis 5:24. Enoch walked faithfully with God; then he was no more, because God took him away.

Some believe the Apostle John walked in this.  Amongst the four gospels, it’s John who records Jesus’ teachings on immortality.  This may […]

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Time Streams 6: Outside Time

God exists outside of time.  Time is a created thing, a 4th dimension that we are moving through.  Knowing this gives a glimpse of how much is possible through Christ.  (It’s believed that God placed the earth into time after the fall, to contain sin, which does not exist in eternity.  See also Science and the Bible.)

Time Travel

In Christ, we can step outside of time too – in both the past and the future.

Deliverance ministries, like Liebusters, have found they can pray into the past for Jesus to minister to our younger selves.  When I tried it, I saw myself speaking across a barrier to my younger self, letting myself know that my needs would be met.

We can pray into the past to remove generational curses too.  I typically ask God to forgive my ancestors who sinned, and I forgive them as well.  But often it is by our faith that things are done for us.  We can ask God to redeem our ancestors as well.

I’ve heard testimony that praying into the past can work for healing as well, asking for something to be changed.  The testimony I heard was of a person who had an object fall on a foot.  The prayer – presented in Heavenly Court – was for an angel to lessen the impact, so the damage wouldn’t be so severe.  The outcome in the present was that the foot was better, having had time to heal from a less severe injury.

I’ve heard lots of testimony about time slowing down.  My mother, who is a teacher, once experienced a revelation where God showed her the spirits of all the children listening to her and how much he loves each and […]

By |April 25th, 2017|Teaching|0 Comments

Time Streams 5: Reasons for Urgency

As the world grows darker, dangers increase.  But dangers can be impacted by God’s people.  In these times, a harvest is needed.  There is an urgency for God’s people to answer his dual call of drawing near to him in relationship, while stepping out into responsibility.


  • Isaiah 59:19. So shall they fear the name of the Lord from the west, and his glory from the rising of the sun. When the enemy shall come in like a flood, the Spirit of the Lord shall lift up a standard against him.

It is not God’s heart to allow disasters.  He would use us to stop the enemy if we cooperate.  However, God will be served either way.  Disasters can be used to sober people and call them back, thus saving many.  Isaiah 26:9; Matthew 5:30.  There is one future where God’s people ride a tidal wave caused by a disaster to proclaim Jesus is real.

This article does NOT proclaim any kind of doom.  Warning dreams are for the very purpose of avoiding danger and saving lives.  Job 33:14-18.

However, there is good reason for urgency to step into relationship and responsibility.  The following visions are not about things that will happen, but things that could.  Our service to God is service to ourselves.

A Mushroom Cloud

I’ve seen a mushroom cloud many times now.  I first saw it in 2008, but far away on the horizon.  Years later, I saw it again, still on the horizon, but with giants rising on the Earth.  There are people rising up in the faith now, and they can have an impact.  This future can be changed.

As I began to understand these things better, I dreamed I was batman fighting the joker.  The […]

By |March 26th, 2017|Teaching|0 Comments

Time Streams 4: A Different View of the Last Election

The last election is an example of changed timelines, including timelines that might have occurred, but did not, and how prophecy best functions to reveal the heart of God.

A Prophetic Background to the Election

Certain timelines were lost long before the campaigns began.  John Paul Jackson had shared that the person God created to be president in 2012 had been aborted as a baby in 1972.  Going forward, the best Christians could hope for was a change in direction.  (Jackson died in Feb. 2015.)

Leading into the election cycle, there were serious warning prophecies.  Credible people saw time streams where either the election did not take place, or Obama stayed in office.  Calls for prayer went out.  This is when my own visions started.

How to See Into a Person

First, some context is in order:  The ability to see in the spirit is increased by love.   Basically, to see into a person and minister to their need, you must love the person – no matter what side they’re on or what they’ve done.  This is possible through Jesus.  But if you’re unwilling to help the person, you have less reason to see into them, or perhaps no reason at all.  In this instance, I didn’t see by intent.  I saw only what the Lord chose to show me.

A Path Not Taken – Clinton could have Won

In the early days of the election cycle, I saw Hillary Clinton’s campaign like a finely made clock, but packaged in a plastic heart.  People weren’t going to buy it.  In the dream, I told her advisors to package the clock in a crystal heart.

The Bible tells us to pray for our leaders, and I did so.  But I saw no change.

By […]

By |March 18th, 2017|Teaching|0 Comments

Time Streams 3: Adventures in Dallas

Our adventures in Dallas were the result of our decision to step out and serve God.  Jesus altered our timeline again, and pushed us along a new path.

Leaving Colorado for Dallas

When our time in Colorado reached its end, the Lord did not tell us where to go.  So we prayed and decided that wherever one of us found a job first, that would be the place.  We applied for jobs throughout Colorado and Texas.  The first phone call was for my wife, who was hired on the phone by a school district in Lewisville, Texas, badly in need of a bilingual diagnostician.   After the call, we looked at a map to find out exactly where Lewisville is, and saw it was right north of Dallas, Texas.  We packed a U-Haul trailer and drove off to Dallas to find a place to live.

The Last Days of Jackson

Three important things happened in Dallas.  The first, is that we found ourselves living in a small rental home only a few miles away from Streams Ministries during the last days of John Paul Jackson, right on the edge of Flower Mound, Texas.  This was not by intention.  The little home was only the affordable and clean place we found on a moment’s notice, after showing up in town with a U-Haul.

Jackson was the authority on learning how to hear from God and dream interpretation.  At that time, he was in a tremendous spiritual battle and struggling to survive an aggressive and painful form of cancer.  But he would not stop ministering.  I attended prayer meetings at Streams every weekend, and watched in the audience for the last series of Jackson’s broadcasts.

Jackson radiated love and fatherhood.  On his show, […]

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Time Streams 2: What the Reaper Said


Changed timelines happen most often in personal ministry – especially in bringing people to Christ, which is a first step for them to achieve their destiny.  It’s something we should be passionate about.  For me, I was deeply impacted by an encounter with a spirit being in Colorado.  The story goes like this:


In 2012, we sold our possessions and drove off to Mexico.  We’d exhausted ourselves from long days at work and sleepless nights with babies.  My health was declining again.  A major work project ended.  And God had threatened to stop speaking to me if I didn’t step out to serve him.  So I talked to my wife, and we chose to venture out into the unknown.

At this time, God came in a vision, gave me two glasses of orange juice to drink, and showed me that he would push me along and it would be fun.  It didn’t sound fun.  I knew the dream meant there were two seasons of perseverance ahead of me.  (Orange represented perseverance, and there were two cups of it to drink.)

In Telluride, Colorado

We stayed in Mexico a few months, and then were sent north to the skiing town of Telluride, where we joined a mission outreach.  Telluride is breathtaking.  The town is in a box canyon, with the Bridal Veil Waterfall at the end.  There is a modern ski village built on the mountainside above, connected by gondola, and we found a townhome there.

It was a strange time in a remote place.  Good jobs were impossible to find, and whenever there seemed like a possibility, the Lord would warn me off.  We had savings to live on, and my instructions were to take time to learn how to […]

Time Streams 1: Standing in the Gap

The Future Can Be Changed

“Prophecy” is a broad word with different meanings.  There are personal words for encouragement or direction.  There’s also looking into the future for what’s to come.  This article is about looking into the future.  My understanding is different now than when I first began.

The old teaching was that prophecy is future history.  That is sometimes true, but often is not.  The future exists as an array of different possibilities, depending on choices made now.  Prophecy is often a warning, to guide choices, or to intercede in prayer.

It’s common sense if you think about it.  A drunk man walking to his car may be about to die.  But if he hands his keys to a friend, the path changes.  Now he lives.  Two very different paths, based on a single choice.  A prophecy that the man would die is a warning, not an absolute.  The future can be changed.  Different timelines are available, depending which path we chose to walk.

(Sci-fi movies guessed this years ago.  God often slips prophetic ideas into movies – at least the not-so-bad ones.  When you get a feel for it, prophetic elements can really stand out.)

Prophets Intercede

The “future history” view imagines prophets as sinister:  a declarer of disasters and punishments meted out by an angry God, for which the righteous may be forewarned and take shelter.  I’ve heard a mega-church pastor say that if God does not punish America, he will have to apologize to Sodom.  I don’t see it that way.

A prophet is more like a heart who can speak (credit Graham Cooke); someone revealing the heart of a loving God to people in need.  Instead […]

By |March 9th, 2017|Teaching|0 Comments

Techniques for Overcoming

I recently overcame a time of testing, which I truly wasn’t prepared for, and I wanted to share it for the benefit of all.

Crisis – Seeing Darkness

Some years ago, the Lord instructed me not to look too closely at darkness, so as not to pollute myself.  And that was my approach to hearing and seeing with better clarity.

However, as I cleared gateways from my spirit to my soul and body (see e.g., Mike Parson’s material starting here and or Ian Clayton’s original article on his website), my vision increased until I came to a place where I began seeing the darkness in people.  Knowing with certainty the darkness that lies in people’s hearts broke my own heart.

I immediately went back to my own coping mechanisms, and closed my mind to seeing for a time.  I understand now that I had to confront and overcome my own coping mechanisms.  But it was incredibly difficult.  I wanted to, but I lacked the strength.

My coping mechanisms are unique to me.  After years of seeking the Lord, obvious areas of sin were purged long ago.  But in my heart, I greatly desire love and knowledge.  The Lord revealed that, for me, filling my head with knowledge was like an addict taking cocaine.  It was a way to hide my mind.  This may seem counterintuitive, given the years we spend in school and building careers.  But for me, burying my mind in knowledge is how I comfort my mind – an area of the soul affecting the conscious, subconscious, imagination, and will.  Books, websites, games, even legal briefs, are temptation for me, if not put in their proper place.

I […]

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